There is more to life than increasing its speed.
- Ghandi (via heywhysoserious)
I should’ve said this to this manager who made me cry earlier. Yes, that’s right, he made me cry. I scheduled a talk with him regarding a possible role and he launched to a whole feedback sesh on how I shifted my priorities from working too much and too hard in the office to working on my non work stuff. I cried because he made me remember all the bad stuff that led me to decide to go after another life priority. He made me cry because I am not used to hearing bad stuff about how I work. He made me cry because I reacted to it. I wasn’t ready for a self-introspective session. I was there looking to move to another role. He was a manager, not my therapist. He doesn’t know the whole story and was just stupid to accept his truth.
I refuse to go back to my workaholic self. No. Not because I dress better and look better now means I dumbed down on my work. You should hear me in my calls! You should know the people I talk to! Ugh. One thing’s for sure, I will never work for him. I hate looking weak after I already went through so much. I hate being affected when the past is brought up.
I don’t hate the old me but I just like the new me better.
You know what I see when I look at the future? Possibilities.
- me. just now.
I either eat too much or starve myself. Sleep for 14 hours or have insomniac nights. Fall in love very hard or hate passionately. I don’t know what grey is. I never did.
I am a woman
- Maya Angelou (via thatkindofwoman)
Oh wow! This is awesome input, thank you! It explains a lot and I can include the RnR stuff to the changes I’m imposing on myself. Thank you so much!
Thank you Snap! That cheered me up a bit. I guess the whole weight perspective is an Asian parent thing that I can’t easily ignore. My mom made a comment about the obvious weight gain so when my pants were too tight today, I just lost it. :( anyway, I still do need to shed off a few pounds in time for the October races. I’ll look into flax seeds calories and benefits just to check if it’s a better sub to the chia. I really appreciate the input! :)